Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Balance

I am seven and a half months clean from using drugs. In thirty-plus years of abuse, I have never had a full year go by without using. Lately it has been hard. I am very lonely without Angie and sometimes everything just seems so pointless, but I am using the tools I have learned in therapy to get through the days. I have to maintain a balance and not throw any more of my life away.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Is that what Depeche Mode is talking about in "Get The Balance Right"? Whatever works, I guess - good luck ...

The condition of the work world doesn't help matters much either, I'm sure ... I especially pity the poor people who lose their jobs, have no family to fall back on, and wind up homeless ... I saw almost 200 forecloseures in one day at a courthouse in Atlanta (that's one way to keep the government out of our bedrooms, just eliminate the bedrooms!) ... all the while more jobs are going overseas so big companies can save a few more bucks ... there's always the army, I guess ... for the young people anyway ... They're even going around recruiting them on the street ... must be the best place to find the homeless ... looks like its time to move to India (not the president's dog, but the country), or make money at home, while we still have one...

Erica Hanks said...

Congratulations! I think you're doing a really brave thing!

You have to be happy about all the sunshine we're getting today. It's supposed to be nice for a WHOLE WEEK! 7 days without rain! WOO HOO! This is the Arizona we know and love!

Anonymous said...

You let one drop of rain spill I'll whip your ass so hard you won't see rain for a WEEK!

Anonymous said...

Hi...I can't say I know what you are experiencing in your new effort at a different life. I did watch my father use drugs, so I know the effect he had on me. I hope that you find the strength everyday to keep up your new life. He wasted his life. It's obvious you don't want to. Keep moving forward, and never look back.

You have another Gilbert resident cheering you on.