Wednesday, June 01, 2005
I saw Angie for the first time in almost four months last week. We had a nice lunch and talked about things. I think I can finally accept being just a friend with her. I'm glad she's doing well with her life. I have to be realistic so I can get on with my life. Sandra, on the other hand, has been annoying me lately. She has a tendency to say whatever she is thinking and has insulted me subtly on a few occasions. I don't think she even realizes she is doing it. I don't want to make it a big deal, but it does bug me. I appreciate her candor on most things, but sometimes she has no tact. I think it is better to tell a white lie to protect someone's feelings than to spout off the unvarnished truth. I believe in complimenting people from time to time, so they will feel good about themselves. Sandra does not. I'm not expecting gushing praise, but I feel very vulnerable right now, having lost Angie. A nice word would be appreciated, but it's not Sandra's way. I am trying to accept her as she is. She has admitted to me that people find her abrupt, and says she doesn't care.