My wonderful former girlfriend wants to be friends. I guess I'll have to live with this. Really. As you may know from previous blogs, Angie left me because I liked to smoke crack. She gave it a good ten years or so. I was so mad and crazy up until recently. Lately a kind of strange peace has settled over me. I don't know why, except maybe I am accepting reality in a way I couldn't under the influence. Plus as my head continues to clear (I have 6 months clean), I am beginning to change my views about what I want from life. Yeah, I still love her madly. (Thanks Jim Morrison) But maybe I consciously or subconsciously did things to subvert our relationship. Who knows. I carry a lot of the blame, of course. However, it does take two people to make or break a relationship. I have to accept that she just doesn't want me anymore. Since we broke up in October of 2003, Angie got into a rebound relationship with someone who now lives with her in a house they just bought.
I can take a hint... Yet, she still seems to want to see me. I have somewhat of a problem with this, but not too much. I AM a man, after all.