Relapse, Anna Nicole, and the End of the World

Yes, I had a bipolar relapse that led me to self-medicate with street drugs. I hate the medication that might prevent me from doing this; it might be worse than the disease. Ironically, while I was on another planet, Anna Nicole Smith checked out of this one. If her death at 39 has any message for me, it could be that the end is always closer than we think. It's definitely closer if I continue to live the way I (and she) did.